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"it is as though I have a cement block trying to go through a shredder that keeps getting jammed"

^direct quote from my latest email to my gastroenterologist

So dysautonomia is definitely cramping my Parisian style now. Nausea, bloating, stomach pain, no appetite…the whole shebang. I’ve had a hard time moving around and haven’t eaten a whole lot, which has resulted in lazy, sick days. Those should not be legal in Paris! But, of course, my body does not recognize geographical cues and continues to wreak havoc. My doc decided to up my Reglan dose, which put my body in a state of shock and panic. So that didn’t last long. And since these symptoms are relatively new, I don’t know what to do or what to expect. 

But what pains me the most (more than the actual pain itself) is that I am considering heading home early and cut my trip short. That kills me. 

current status :: nausea + nausea + a lil bit more nausea

beyoncevoters is my new favorite thing 

beyoncevoters is my new favorite thing 

…from my cardiologist appointment in June…

verycommonmag:

Tilda Swinton, W Magazine 2008Photographed by Juergen Teller

verycommonmag:

Tilda Swinton, W Magazine 2008
Photographed by Juergen Teller

bff is killing it (click to enlarge)

This video perfectly captures my current feelings about my current gastro-related problems. My Reglan, which has been a total godsend thus far, does not seem to be working as well as it should be. I’ve been feeling very full & getting reflux & having abdominal pain & getting way more nauseateddddddddd and 

gastro-shiz + accessibility to delicious French food = conflicted & frustrated Sydney

I’ve been on the reglan for less than a month…has anyone else had similar experiences with it? I’m going to email my doc but I’m wondering what could be done…don’t exactly see a Walgreens with all my records around my current neighborhood. But other than that, dysautonomia hasn’t been cramping my Parisian style too much, and I am *super* happy about that. 

How many times do I have to say it? Madeleine Albright has mastered Twitter, especially the art of the Throwback Thursday. 

The Difference Between Living And Being Alive With Chronic Illness »http://www.huffingtonpost.com/ilana-jacqueline/personal-health-_b_5482294.html

"Life with chronic illness is just like any other — a life full of obstacles. It’s easy to lay down and not get back up. But if you’re not moving, you’re not living. So even when the obstacles become too great, the treatment stops working, the doctor…"

I absolutely love this article. It basically sums up my attitude/philosophy toward my whole health situation. Too many people who deal with chronic illness give up and give in, which does not have to be the case. Even if you don’t have a chronic illness, give it a read because I think the tips apply to anyone going through any hardship.

*click the title for the link

I have thought that a woman should be independent and not regard matrimony as the only thing to be desired in life.
- Helen Taft (keeping it real since nineteenth century)

some more pics of my trip to nyc ((click to enlarge))